Why is it just so hard?

On one level, there’s the actual difficulty of doing it. Some things are hard to get right, and design is one of them, or fiddling with tricksy APIs, and so on. That’s not really it though.

Or again, maybe it’s a problem of motivation. I find writing swathes of PHP intensely boring, and put it off because of that. Or the time. Those have to include at least some of it.

The CICCU website has been batted from person to person for about two years now, with the next big iteration always promised. I’ve had it now to do since Christmas, which isn’t the longest anyone has sat on it, but it’s still quite long. It is genuinely hard to get down to finishing what I did in Easter and pushing through the final bit. I will have a basically complete deliverable for the end of the week, which is reassuring. I’ve had enough prodding to get that done so it can go up for the freshers, and the few remaining features which won’t be switched on until term I can spread out over the next month.

My old home church website is also getting some final elements refreshed, soon, which have been long promised. It will happen, but it takes a year for the most committed person to do it because I’m just not that committed.

Perhaps it’s as simple as that I don’t own the site, don’t feel like I have a stake in it, as well as ordinary sloth. In any case, I pity the churches and CUs who have to put up with me, and former generations of webmasters who’ve done less or put things off longer.